Valentines Day!
I spoke for a few moments sharing with the class that I had long wished to tell her how I felt about her. “You know there is one big reason I am standing here today and that is to ask you one question, so here it goes.” These were the words that I spoke before I did the most surprising thing of all.
I got down on one knee and simply said “Caitlin, will you be my Valentine?”
As I stood there barely breathing, waiting for the answer that would make my day, yet at the same time prepared for the answer that would destroy my intentions. The next few minutes seemed like hours, as I glanced into her eyes and held her hand, the whole class went from laughter to disbelief, to absolute silence in a matter of milliseconds. I could hear my own heart beat, thump thump, thump, thump. I remember thinking to myself what am I doing? Am I nuts? A million thoughts went through my head as I observed her laugh off the shock and begin to speak. The time had come.
In a gentle voice she spoke these words…
“I would love to be your Valentine and thank you for this special gift, but…” She paused.
At first my eyes lit up brighter than any star in the sky in the darkest of nights, my smile so full of life I cannot describe in words how relieved I was, and then the word “but,” the word that scared me the most appeared out of thin air. I still held that smile, hoping for the best. “I have a boyfriend,” she said. My heart sank to the floor faster then I could remember as I caught someone in the front of the class room shed a tear in the corner of my eye.
I stood up still smiling, I knew that regardless of the result, I did what I came there to do. I received the most exhilarating hug from Caitlin and still keep in touch with her to this very day. I learned that life doesn’t always turn out as you planned and that you should always prepare for the worst yet hope for the best. Most importantly, if you really want something, and I mean really want something, you have to risk it all, and go out and get it, otherwise life will only be a series of unfulfilled dreams and wonders.
Yes, it was one of the most embarrassing moments of my life, but I can also say that I left that classroom with a story that I will continue to tell for the rest of my life.
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